I'm not even going to look at how long it's been. I know the answer is way too long. The 4 of you have to forgive me. It's been an absolutely crazy month. That being said, I feel like I'm finally making progress fighting against the current. Let me catch you up on some things.
The woman I was excited about...well, it ended up being nothing, but it was nice to know that I am able to feel things like that again. I'm a long, long way from anything serious, but to be honest with you, I don't have the time right now anyway. Here, I'll explain.....
I'm a head football coach of an 11 and 12 year old team. I'm also a board member, equipment manager and webmaster of the league. I promise you that I'm not saying that to toot my own horn. I assure you that if you were to talk to people in the organization, there are a number of them that wished I wasn't any of those things. I just say it so that you might understand why I haven't been posting.
OK, so the head football coach thing. I have to be honest, it's something I've always wanted to try, but once it happened, I was scared to death. I'd hate to fail and ruin things for the kids. I've been really lucky though. I have a couple of amazing assistant coaches. One in particular is a total knowledge bank and is a totally mellow guy. He is going to make me look way better than I really am. I promise you that I tell as many people as I can that he is the most important person involved with our team. Well, him and my team mom who has been lights out. I really am lucky.
Continuing with football. We had a scrimmage yesterday. It was our first competition against another team, and it actually went pretty well. I was really pleased. The kids played really hard, and I think they had fun which is the most important part. The crazy thing is, I think I'm starting to get a bit comfortable with this head coach thing. I think that I just might be figuring it out. Who'd of thunk. Adding to the positives...my oldest was on the sideline with me watching. It was so cool. I loved having him there. He even said I looked like a coach. Whoa!!!
There was one bummer about the scrimmage. My youngest played at the same time that my team did so I didn't get to see the touchdown pass he threw. Trust me, that is really difficult for me, but without meaning to he made me feel better. You should hear him describe the play. It's awesome to listen to him!! I love it.
OK, I have 237 things I still have to do tonight, so I'm going to cut this short. I will say this though, I think my ex is engaged. I'm not sure why I think that, but my gut tells me she is. I'm not going to ask her because it's really none of my business, plus I don't think she'd be honest with me if I did ask. That being said, I'm pretty sure. Our divorce is final in late October, and he literally lives across the entire country, so I'm curious how that will work, but I have a feeling I'm going to find out. The thing is, I'm not bothered by it at all. Without going into details, I truly feel I did what was best for my kids, and therefore me, by making the decision I did. We simply were not going to work. I really, really, really hope that he is what she needs. I'm praying.
With that...thanks guys, and peace out!!
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