I think I just got off the craziest roller coaster I've ever been on. Seriously. The last 7 days...actually, let's go with since last Friday, I have had so many ups and downs that my feet are still wobbly. How about a recap...
My youngest hit an inside the park home run to tie the game in the bottom of the last inning on Friday evening. Well, it was a legitimate triple with a throwing error that allowed him to score, but in minor baseball that an inside the park home run and I don't care what anyone says!!! My ex got video of it and I have watched it at least 50 times this week. So awesome for him!!!
Then I went disco dancing. I was all ready to dress up too. For reals yo! I had gone thrift shopping and everything. Last minute though the dress up part of the evening was voted down by the group. That's ok though. I'm pretty sure that polyester would have left a rash. So I danced. And man, did I dance. If you don't know me, I like to dance. (Haha, that's funny. If you don't know me you're not reading this blog, but I'll pretend I have an anonymous reader somewhere.) So yeah, I like to dance. A woman told me to marry her that night too. Why? I told her happy 27th birthday. I'm not kidding. For some reason she really liked that. What can I say?
I also had something happen to me on the dance floor that I've never had happen before. So, I have no problem dancing by myself. That's a good thing actually because I spend most of the time dancing by myself. I know, that's sad. Anyway, I was doing just that when a couple of woman approached me. I stopped, looked at them, and said the only thing that came to mind..."hi." One of the woman says, "I'm sorry to bother you, but my friend here would like to dance with you." I looked at her friend and she had this cute little shy smile going on. I thought to myself, "No freakin way!! I've never been on this side of this situation before!!" I was always the shy one needing help. I looked at her and said, "Absolutely." So we danced. It was a lot of fun. Afterward I gave them both a hug and said, "Thank you ladies." It really was surreal.
Sunday was Mother's Day. It was the first Mother's Day since we split. We went to dinner as a family and it was really nice. I hope she had a good Mother's Day.
I had drinks with my ex on Monday. We're trying to keep the friend thing going. We've known each other for 20 years, and as I've said, nobody will ever make me laugh harder than her. So she asked me to meet her for drinks and I said sure. You know, we still say things like, "I wish we would have..." or, "I should have..." You know what? We need to stop doing that. It doesn't help. It just keeps us thinking about the past. Anyway. Monday night was really difficult. I'm not going to go into details, but it was really difficult. I'm glad I was a part of it though.
My ex turned 40 on Tues. She still looks like she's in her mid 20's. She really is a beautiful woman. My youngest had his last band concert of the year that evening and at the last minute I looked at my calendar and realized that I had been saying 6, but my calendar said it was 5:30. Of course it was already 5:25. To make matters worse, he was at her house. I had to call and tell her that I screwed up the time. I hate screwing up like that. She hurried up and got him there the same time I was walking up and what do we find? It started at 6:30. Are you serious? Yeah, we had an hour. I paid for my mistake though. I had to sit through an entire elementary violin concert while we waited for the band. That was brut.....a lot of fun. :)
There was a totally cool moment during the concert. My youngest played "Happy Birthday" as a solo to his mom on her birthday. He totally nailed it too. It was very, very cool. Then the four of us went to dinner again. It was fun. I enjoyed it a lot.
Wednesday was not so much fun. Feel free to read my "Well that sucked..." post to read about that day. The meeting I referenced? I met with her and her attorney for the first time. As I said, it sucked. Oh well.
Thursday was better. There's a post about that too.
Then last night my oldest decided he didn't want to come stay at my house this week. That was pretty devastating. I'm not sure if it's a one time thing, or something that will continue coming up. I wasn't going to fight him on it this time though. We'll see about next time. I already miss him. Even though I hardly see him when he's here because he's back in his room the entire time, I still really like having him here. I have to figure out how to connect with him. He's 14. I hope I can figure something out.
So yeah, crazy week. There's something else that's been really difficult for me to deal with, but it really isn't my story to tell, so I"ll wait until another time to share what that's been like. I also had something happen that might be really nice to deal with, but I'm not sure yet so that will have to wait too. Life sure is full of ups and downs isn't it? Hey life, I love a great roller coaster and all, but could I sit this week out please? I'm thinking a nice slow ride through "It's a Small World" is in order. Wait, I hate that song. Change that. You know what I mean though. Don't you life? Life? Oh man. Looks like I'm going to have to find out for myself. You know what? Bring it on!!
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